(okay, whatever there's somenone or not but hi :D)
i believe that i have been said before i wanna continue my thesis experience right?, yeah it's about seminar before..
and here i am, i am in the middle of process to sattle my undergraduate thesis, make it perfectly
i actually had my presentation on Thursday, June 18th before but i don't anytime to continue what i wrote, so this time will be pleasure.
is it okay to me to use my english? yeah, ya know, english isn't my 1st language, and i really really already knew that i always mess up with this language, so i hope you don't bother if this article won't make you understand what i mean.
Okay, back to my promise, you know, the week before i must had that presentation i really haven't ready, my thesis was going so slowly and was thinking about i end this semester with nothing, but i and my friend was trying to keep struggle until the judge day.
i already messed up before for the permission for my seminar, so this time will not end like that way, so i just brave my self to make my advisor believe in me, i can do that presentation, surely.
even h-hours my advisor keep telling me to change some my data..that was something!
i prayed to God to give me Tao's power to skip that day (kkkk XD), but i knew time wouldn't be pleasant so..i can do nothing.
but it was like miracle, my examines so kind and gave me a relax atmosphere so i can passed it! even i was taking so long time in my presentation ahahahaha
i know it's not good enough like my seminar, but my advisor told me "quite satiesfied", it was sooooo enough for me ^^.
it's like miracle in 1st day in Ramadhan :3 Allah is always nice to me, even i always have a bad attitude and not being good. Thanks for all this time, Alhamdulillah.
okay, so can we change the topic now?
this time i try to write in english, because lately i really have read so many fanfiction, hahaha (i know what are you thinking about XD)
but seriously, it was worthed, i was continuosly read an article in english, and i bet this is the part of my exercise, and instead of buy some novels, this activity save my money ya know ahahaha, i just need a wifi or internet connection for that.
did i tell you before i really like EXO?
yeah, it's because Kyungsoo and end with Kaisoo, i know it's kinda creepy i like this couple but i really like the way they comfort each other on stage to support each other, and i end up like this hahaha.
the one which always in my mind is story about omega, alpha and beta, (Kaisoo shipper must know this XD)
the omega was searching for his mate, but omega isnt aggressive type so he keep in waiting mode for his mate, he was wondering who's his mate and what kind of, his father told him that "mate is someone who's make you feel an electricity in your body". (okay i'll stop here, go find the ff so u can realese your desire to know the ending ^^)
i think i'm going to end cheesy like before..
if you read my all article, it's kinda cheesy right? *me tooo feeel it, like guilty on myself -.-"*
i told about "him" in every my article. i'm sorry..
i have nowhere to go, my mind is always full of him even i don't want to think about it, i don;t have someone to talk so i just write all.
related to the caption of ff before, you can guess that "him" is the one who's gave me an electricity, and by the time it was not going to done but even worse.
the climax is its make me wanna have him *omg i'm cheesy*
i never ever think about mate before until i met him, i was the type of girl who's never bother about something an adult worried, especially about have a relationship. idk i just always thought that i'm to young, i have all something to do right on my forehead so i'll do what must i do. But my age is getting older so somebody will ask me who's my date or mate right?
i'm not going told that i like him because of force about somebody question, but the question make me think about "who's my mate?"
i admit i really shy for the crossgender so i end up little bit awkward sometimes with people because my attitude, but it was just..there..the awkward moment will be melt everytime i get to know them better. but an electricity like that it was the first to me and it's grow by time, so i end up like this, always make him turn around in my mind, even now that sensation was gone. yeah, the electricity experience was gone nowhere from my life (but i always have an awkward moment with him and make me wanna run so far away and not meet up him).
the time that i realized that the electricity sensation was gone, i really don't have any desire for my love life yeah except for being so fangirling and love so much Kaisoo ff cause they gave me a desire to see them embrace each other *OMG what i'm saying?*, but i feel proud of it because i still have a desire even just for to be the cute cupid.
i mean, did you feel me? i already 21th y.o (it was not child again of course) but i just still like this like my age doesn't change anything.actually in my age (or maybe younger) the teenager will be have a boyfriend, well at least she have been experienced before, but i'm not.idk it was my decision or not t refuse the "boyfriend" things, cause i felt need it, but the part of me saying it wasn't a truth.
back to mate, the one who's gave me the electricity was gone, i really hard to find hm anywhere, and i always bother to ask something to him even just undirectly messege, so i missing him. thinking about how he make me feel that i finally found my mate was the craziest thing i've ever done, but i really mean it (even he in list who's the one i remember the number, include my number, my father and mother number, and he make me wrote down his name in this list). now, that "thing" was gone so i can't think again about how the electricity run in your body and give you simple reaction "shy and blushing" (i really lucky with my dark color so you never can tell me while i'm blushing). i can't feel my desire again to be have by someone or thinking about who's my mate again.
thinking about the marry age was so close to me, i don't have any idea of it, poor me..
yeah, can i just on this peace way? even it will keep my "child" mentally like before.
